The Main Event

August 8th 2011

Cora, Keely and I are working behind the scenes at a University of some sort. In the main area I see Tom Waitts. I joke around with him and he leaves. I think I made him uncomfortable. The girls and I ride a strange elevator up to a hay colored loft area. We talk. I tell them that my Uncle Rocky invited me to this event and I haven't even been inside yet. We go back down and I get a bit of vertigo sit on my butt for the decent. The university area is really big and confusing. Cora and I leave and go around a corner. There is a very steep hill. I go for it at a run. I make it almost all of the way up when I see car lights and turn a quick right into some major astral wind. The people I pass don’t seem to be affected by it and I worry that they are looking at me funny. I do some swimming motions to propel myself through the wind. I can best describe this as trying to walk at a normal pace in a swimming pool if you feet were to be weighted down. I finally make it. I am in a raised, patio of some sort, that borders the main arena/university. There are many iron gates and green shrubs. I find Cora and we are in the hallway. I get the sense that this hallway is for staff only.We are sitting in a long rounded hallway. The kind that circle and arena. There is a girl next to Cora, along with various other apparent staff. The girl is dark skinned with grey, blue and black dreadlocks. She bends Cora’s head into her lap and begins to passionately kiss her. At first I am surprised but after a while I’m just bored and somewhat anxious to explore. Cora tells me something about her mystery girl, it is something along the lines of, “I don’t think I could live without her. I’m so grateful to have her in my life.” Suddenly I am worried that I have failed in keeping in touch with someone important. I reach for my cell phone and by the time I am looking at the the screen to dial/text, it is pouring down rain. I am mildly concerned for my phones well being, but it soon passes. I am wandering now but really have a goal in mind. A beautiful woman is around. She looks like Halle Berry and I know that she is kind and powerful. I find my way back to that patio/courtyard. Someone is leading me to a table surrounded by very special people.

These people are the ones whom this whole production/concert is for. I know that I am not supposed to be “worth” of their presence, but whoever is leading me insists that I belong. “How could we possibly begin without you.” one of them says (or all of them?), as I take my seat around the table.

Note: At some point I find myself in a low lit room in the University. Maroon walls. Soft. I am talking to al older professor. All of the door knobs are defective. 

August 7th 2011

Maya and I are trying to find someplace to sleep for the night. I think I may be in the dream lodge. There is a mattress but it is too narrow. We try out a few places finally get to an “L” shaped couch that I adjust. Still difficult to get situated. I am concerned for her comfort.

The Great

I am in bed with Alexander. It doesn’t seem sexual, however we slowly but surely move into a spoon position. It feels quite natural. Someone else is in the room with us and they don’t seem to mind.

False Awakening July

I look at my alarm clock. My cell phone says it is 5:56 or 5:65 or something like that. I know this cannot be. I tell myself I’m dreaming. I know that if I wait long enough the time will be right.

Question and Answer

In a book I am reading it is suggested that one should experiment with posing a question to the mind that is to be answered in dream state. Here are my results:

Question: What was the significance of the moving boxes stacked outside of my home in Dreamworld?

Dream That Followed:

“That’s my kitty.” Brian says to the young man with a grin. Blandora is lying on the floor in front of us. There is a dog with Brian. My intuition tells me it is Haley. Happiness and love surround  us.

June 14th 2011

Colin and I browse a movie selection. He brings one very colorful DVD to my attention. I look at it for a moment and realize it’s a Miazaki film. “Is this a Miazaki?” I say to him. I flip it over, the year reads 1987. I am happy and also shocked that a Miazaki film went so long unknown to me. Kendall is with us.

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We are in a long, narrow room. Maybe a school bus. They are passing out three types of textbooks that everyone gets. I am very interested in the fist test I received. I come back to “reality” and realize that I don’t have all the materials I need.

Note: I am quite certain there is a parallel in which may aspects of our time/life at Oak Street, are very much alive and breathing. My focus this week will be to communicate said place/time.

Sometime in June

I am arguing with Uncle Rich. He is being very stubborn. We are in a very crowded house. A narrow walkway. People related to Suzette and Sharon are here.

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I am in a store picking between two cookies. They are both thin mint style. One is $2.99 and the other is $.99. I wonder what the difference could be. The lights go down and it is understood that an older female I know will be carrying out some sort of hunting. I remind her that I have done nothing to her. She sneaks me out the back door. I am on a busy street. I am overwhelmed. I realize I got the cookies for free. At the party, Nadra says, “You don’t even  like those (cookies)!” I do not correct her, because I do like them. I reach into the bottom of a fridge for a soda can.

Aliens & Animals

We are outside. It is a beautiful day. Sun shining. I am near some sort of fenced lot when the animals begin to roam. They have escaped. They are huge and attacking what seems like everything in sight. As I escape east, an animal tracks me down so I hold very still. I breath deeply. The animal passes. I make it back to the dorms where I find myself in a room that is not mine. I am only wearing a sort dress so I peruse the closet. It is filled with retro clothing maybe from eh seventies. I try on a mauve, long-sleeved button up shirt. I know I’ll need some sort of cold protection. I take the shirt and see that there is a dog in the room. I fear it is one of the wild alien animals and continue to treat it as such, however it doesn’t seem to pose any threat. I take a shower, hoping the dog will leave me alone. It just jumps in. Brian joins me (I am in room 19). We start to make love but hear a jeep

pull up outside of our window. The jeep crew, some of whom we may or may not know, offer to take us to a refuge. However we cannot tell the leaders “what we’ve done” or we will be negatively judged. I think we refuse. Now we are in Brian's car driving north with a few companions. On a busy street we see through a foggy sky, a fleet of quick-moving space ships do twisty, curvy maneuvers. They are blasting some announcement over their communication system. Brian and I are making fun of the address because it seems very obvious. Everything they say seems obvious. All of a sudden a blanket of snow and ice is on all you can see. We panic a bit and start looking for any extra clothing we can pile on. I still am wearing a short dress and the shirt from someone's retro closet. I spy a hat, one of those kind with fur on he inside. A girl we are with grabs it first but soon I spy another similar to it. After driving for a bit we realize that there is no more snow. We reach a mountain. The road to it, you can spot all sorts of perversely large animals. A result of the “Recent Panic”. We traverse a rocky path alongside the mountain. Inlaid eye level in the mountain side are short, wide windows. I look inside and see a classroom laboratory. The people inside don’t seem to be concerned about the “Recent Panic”.

 

I am at Suzette and Kenny’s house. I enter the basement through the sliding glass doors. Kenny is sleeping on the couch. As I go upstairs I am thinking about the safety of Maya and Mom. Suzette assures me they are safe. There is a black man smiling at me sitting on the couch. Sharon appears to be very frail. I tell Suzette i plan on walking back, but she insists on giving me a ride.

Sidewalk Ninja

 

We attempt to attend this public filming of a certain famous Asian news woman. We are all very excited. We must traverse a very steep hill to get to our destination. I decide to leave my bike halfway up the hill. We make it to the top and from there we can see the back side of the filming set. It now becomes increasingly difficult. There are a number of wide stairwells just before a series of moving sidewalks like you would expect in an airport. These sidewalks move fast and once once begins you cannot hesitate to jump on for they all move at different rhythms. There were three others with me trying to get to the same place. I ninja style make my way across.

 

Fragments

There is a new place for us to live.

A stadium.

Bunk beds. Sheets. Water.

We are all gathered in theater style seating.

Nadra.

A younger man.

River Retreat

I am at some sort of lodge. I am working. Nadra and maybe Renee are here. They are staying and I am working. Suzette and Kenny are here as well. At some point we are in the river. The river or ocean we are swimming in is accessed by a tall wall/barrier. There is a ladder, wooden, you can climb to get in and out. It is dark, maybe dusk. We realize that the ladder is gone. The two people who swim with me are very worried, I dont' seem to share their panic. I use a little logic and we are safely up the ladder. "I can't believe we didn't realize the ladder was gone!"

In the lodge I go around doing various tasks. I have a sense that I'm half-assing my work. With all the distractions of everyone I know around. I pop in on Kenny for a bit and he is only interested in drinking his huge bottle of whiskey.

I am in some one's room that I should not be. There are many entrance in and out of the rooms in the lodge. In the end I am on a porch speaking with John Schleining.

What I Learned in the Village

We were on a camping expedition. Following different indigenous peoples around and learning from them. The last village we stopped at was dark when we arrived. The moon was full and the main area was quiet and deserted. We walked to the edge of the village just before a great field of brown grass. A tall fence surrounds the village comprised of tall sharpened sticks mostly. Atop two or four of the posts, sits some mammaloid creature. It's a golden color and has two short ears with a drooping head. A little boy walks up behind us before we have time to inspect the creature fully.

"What is this?" I ask the little boy.
"This is what keeps the lions away." says boy "It is their only son."
I look again to the lifeless mass in horror. A terrifying sense of corruption and disgust washes over me.
"You did this?" I ask the small boy with an amused look on his face.
"Yes, I did this." he offers gladly.

Fragments

I'm working at a department store. An Asian couple comes to my till. I comment on their choices of clothing, noting that each piece is either blue or yellow if not both. I inquire as to wether they are from Knappa. They say know and laugh. We carry on a whimsical conversation. They are very nice.

A strange man sits beside me on the bench. I am very uncomfortable being so close to him. He's very large, towering over me. I regret being nice to him earlier in the day. I walk off down the street and notice a very handsom man driving in a truck near me. I check to see if I look decent.

Field Trip

I'm on a trip with them. We're in an empty building. It's almost like an art gallery. There are two rooms as the whole building seems to be divided in half. The west side of the second room is covered in ceiling to floor glass windows. We're outside and we hear sirens. Men in uniform usher us inside of the building. I look ou the window and see a bus flying toward us. It has lost control and doesn't seem to be able to stop. It crashes into the glass as I roll, barely missing it's impact. I see it slide over many students and know they are dead. I get up to see the damage. The bus is gone. I look for any of my friends and when I see non are injured I to go to the next room. I find him. His back turned, unaware of the accident. I grab his shirt, look into his eyes and lead him to the glass room. When there I see her. We embrace and he joins in on the group hug.

Now we're on the concrete floor of the first room in sleeping bags. The room is filled with the surviving students. Our trip has been postponed. I can't sleep. My hair is long and in my face. I look to him and realize he is looking at me too. I act as if though he's startled me. Everyone is awake now and they decide to go outside. I begin to cry and act traumatized but I'm putting on a front. After they have gone, I decide I want to go. I leave through the door that has been covered in a plastic sheet. I don't think I was supposed to leave. I turn left on the sidewalk, realizing my purse is in her car. On my way to her car, a boy comes skateboarding by. I keep walking and he asks me if I brought my board. I tell him with a smile, "I don't even know how to skateboard!" He laughs and says he was talking to his friend. I change direction, realizing that I have taken the wrong path. I see them sitting on various platforms on the side of the building. They are watching the sky. I realize that it seems almost impossible to reach them. I move items on the platforms around, to make room for myself. I've lost hope.

Up

I'm preparing to board a plane. I'm waiting and there are many people around me. Where I wait, a large outdoor market is commencing. I spot a particular vendor that is selling fruits from Africa. They are the oddest delicasies I've seen. I taste one fruit that resembles a gourd shaped kiwi. The fruit is a vibrant yellow. It tastes like a banana.

We board the plane, which is the size of a small mansion. There are recliners and beds. I'm happy to see that someone has bought a large quantity of the African fruit for the journey. A woman asks me to hold her baby. The baby is very quiet and content. Smiling and laughing as I throw her into the air and catch her.

I'm in a shop that sells various foods and whatnots. I'm still on the plane. I talk with the boy at the check out stand and he asks me for my number. I head over to the steps and I see a display of hot dogs and buns. The buns are $0.40 and the hot dogs are $.0.80. I figure I have just enough to buy one of each. I decide to split it with him. I go upstairs to get my money and she informs me that all havoc has been unleashed. The current scenario is playing out like a twisted horror movie. People on the plane are becoming possessed by some demon-like spirit. Everyone is very afraid. Suddenly it seems the only answer is to leave. I notice and open door and run to it. When I'm outside I begin to walk. I see a gate. I think to myself, "If I make it past that gate, everything will be okay." I am successful.

Strange Trip II

We are in a large group. We are going on a camping trip of sorts, however we have rented a room to store all of our belongings. I am upset I didn't bring my Vibrams. We have to walk up a very steep hill plagued with fat, long snakes on the path. I take my time at the room. Contemplate sleeping here. When I arrive at dinner there is a pretty girl sitting next to Brian. Fireworks are going off. (Am I dreaming of our upcoming 4^th of July party?). I am unhappy with how Brian and this girl are acting. My cats are here. As I walk up the trail, I see what I believe to be two-two coming across a bridge. Just when I realize it isn't him, the dog falls far off the edge, but appears to be okay. I gather up all of my cats for safety.

Fragments

• I look to my necklace and there is no pendant.
• I am on the toilet, I wipe and there is blood.
• I am hosting a party in dreamworld at my (new) house.

Sidewalk Ninja

We attempt to attend a public filming of one certain Asian female news woman. We are all very excited. We must traverse a very steep hill. I decide to leave my bike halfway up. We get up to our destination. From where we stand we can see the back side of the filming. Now it becomes increasingly difficult. There are a number of wide stairwells just before a series of moving sidewalks like in the airport. These sidewalks move fast and one one begins you cannot hesitate to jump on. There were three other people with me trying to get to the same place. I ninja-style my way across quite easily.

Hold Steady

We were in a town. A tsunami was headed our way. I reached the top of a house not knowing if it would hold. It did. The second wave came. I climb up a ladder, that to my surprise holds as well.

Twin Sisters

One:

I was stuck in the stream. I know a waterfall is near. We are in the river. Near shore we find an escape. We find it difficult to get onto the ledge. My accomplice grabs onto the edge and uses me as leverage.

Two:

Entering my apartment in Twisted City. I am walking down the back alley entrance. As I approach I see a brunette woman at the steps of my back door. She is in her forties or fifties, curly hair and olive skin. She is sorting and stacking a tray of something. Whatever they are, they are smaller than her palm and sparkly. A flower shape comes to mind. She turns to me bent over and says, “Obviously I'm breaking into your house.” I smile at her and pass the whole thing off as if she were telling a funny joke. I edge past her and see the silver tray of colorful items. In my small apartment I make my way to the front door. I exit and find myself in another alley. It is a dead end. Two girls and their mother reside here. They want to play with me. Their mother tells me they are the most powerful psychics in the world.

Remote Viewing: Full of Shit

I am awoken by my bed-mate. I roll over and he tells me that I've shit the bed. I now feel my entire underside body saturated with thin, oily feces. It spans the entirety of our bed. I am not happy about the grim clean up. When standing I pull my clothes off in one fell swoop.

NOTE: The morning of the dream recall, my friend whose couch I was currently surfing upon, received a call from her mother. Her grandmothers bed needed changing on account of an incident involving massive diarrhea. 

The Bag Heist

I am shopping. I realize that I can only buy food items, though I have non food items. I begin to put the non-food items back but realize I can smuggle them through a hole in the bottom of the grocery bag into my unzipped backpack without being suspicious. I begin transporting the non-food items into my backpack via the bag/tote. I also place food items in realizing the potential of this plot. In the car, I find a crisp one-hundred dollar bill. They tell me that it's us is already planned.

Big Brother

We are on the curb, packing up the car. A black man in his thirties begins to approach the steps leading to the front/back door. I watch him nervously, feeling that he has motives that are directed at me. I feel he has been watching me far before this moment.

Clusterfuck II

Suzette tries to snatch up my bag for me. Christa M. is there. She is laughing. We realize that it is out of reach. Lakeside. Riverside. It is on a counter in the bathroom of the hotel room. I thought Brian was sleeping so I have a cigarette. H says to me calmly, “I though you quit smoking?” I proceed to explain that I have but make a list of reasons to justify my slips. All I want is a soda back at Suzette's house. All I can find is beer. Maya and I leave Laura and Brian at the house, while we go either to the garage or a small store. On the “familiar departure” I remember being lucid enough to realize it's familiarity and also talk myself into opening my eyes for the fast decent downward which otherwise I am too afraid to experience. I feel my stomach jump. I think that it's only a dream. Laura C. and I decide to take a set at a tall round table with stools. Mildly aware that there are at least two people with us. One, a boy, really wants to sit by me. At an intersection we find Laura M. broken down/stuck in her white Jeep and one one seems to be helping her. I also hesitate.

Public Transportation

I am babysitting Suzette and Kenny's house. I suppose it's their astral home I often visit. Maya and Brian are there. Brian falls asleep on the couch. The dildo hides tucked between the cushions. Katie G.? Maya suggests I make a batch of rice krispy treats. I doubt we have all of the ingredients. As we board the train or exit, I cannot recall, a black female cop and her drug dog start to sniff my bag. They tell us they need to take it. I act cool and decide to use some positive thinking. On the bus, I take a familiar journey. One where I know we will be going at high speeds, around sharp corners taking steep plunges. It is a transit system that I ride often in Dreamworld. 

Orbs

I'm at Suzette's house or the house that feels like Suzette's house with the raised room. I'm fairy confident this is Suzette's Astral location. I've been coming here since I was a little girl. The discovery of OBE (out of body experience) has made sense of all my strange dream trysts. In front of the TV, an orb appears. It does a little dance, then disappears. There is an element of fear but it soon passes.

Strange Trip

We are on an outing on the beach or lakeside. Dad and I drive to get something we cannot forget. Amanda and Guy are there. I miss Brian and lucidly remember that he will be able to join us this weekend. When we are back from the drive we get to this camp that takes us through a dark place straight to our destination. For some reason, I know that he will shut the light off for the decent. I just know that we will need them. We descend downward and I'm scared but we make it. Lastly we pass through a door at the bottom of our hall/ramp. Who I traveled with is now a very short white man. A small person you might say. I help him down. He seems very on edge, fearful. He stays put. He looks to the open door in horror, so I step up and clasp it shut. A woman I know escorts me back to the are we've set up camp. I comment to the woman while we are walking, about the small nervous man who accompanies me. She looks pale and nervous. She says she would act that way too if the world was ending. I say, “Four days?” She looks to me and replies, “Two days.” I return to the group. They are continuing the movie without me. I am mildly upset. At a bar of some sort with this camp of people. I'm talking to someone and a cute blonde boy with long hair and I begin to flirt. I see later on that the boy was or has proven to be a much younger version of Tiny S. I am immediately concerned about my judgment. I am also mildly repulsed.

The Long Dark Haul

Squeaky is here. I wanted a cigarette from her. There was a very scary bug that was popping up from the water every time someone felt a certain feeling. Someone caught one. There is an old woman, Patsy S. maybe. A struggle. I knew I could leave my something with my sister on the couch. We were very fearful of this large bug with many thick, dark and hairy legs. Spider-like. Lots of water. We are on a raft of sorts. I see a blur on my right shoulder. It pestered me the entirety of my recollection. I was worried it was the water bug.

Anxious Feast

In a cafeteria I am at a long table spread with food. I'm having a hard time deciding what to put on my very small plate. After choosing three of four items, one more table of food is set out. For a moment I am worried that there won't be enough room. I occurs tome that I can place my smaller plate on a bigger plate. It is announced to me that if I have a hard time deciding, there will be guidance available to me.

Some Guidance

I'm sitting across from a woman who likes me very much. She gives me four of her last cookies. All the while she tells me about how good they are. Made with real jam. I give her the last one and she is happy. I get the feeling that she is a teacher to me, a guide.

He Was Happy Down There

Two-two scratches at the door. The sliding glass door. I let him in. I am so happy and shocked. No one else seems to want to give this miraculous event any attention. Am I lucid? I pick him up and give him all of my love. He seems disturbed, not himself. As I type this I am reminded of Buffy's second coming (laugh out loud). He is in pain. I now notice a large hole on the right lower side of his tummy. Holding him, cradling him in my arms, I turn to my family for some help or advice. Something! They all look down, shaking heads nay. They tell me that he may be alive and that there may be hope, but it is not “RIGHT”. They gave me the feeling that helping save Two-two was immoral or corrupt. I turn to Brian, the same reaction from him. A sad, firm, absolute; NO. I am so distraught, lost, speechless. I've snapped. I'm yelling and screaming and raising hell. My heart is broken.

Microsoft Moment

Dad and I sit and compare how different the new and old Windows operating systems are. He shows me the position of the old delete key compared to the new one. He seems very amused by this.

The Game

Maya and I are in a house. Mom. This house is long and narrow. There is a yellow white lighting to the place like there are a lot of lamps overhead and about. It is crowded and cluttered. We are playing a game. I cannot recall how we entered the game but there is a dark, authoritative figure present and the game begins. We are chased and harassed by two huge dogs. Like pit bull, greyhound, wolf hybrids. They have snarling teeth and dirty mugs. We are scratched and bitten but never mortally or even severely wounded. I spot a large stuffy sofa below and open window. I look to a bite/scratch on my finger and see it bloody and bubbling with pus. Out the window is another row type house and and average neighborhood. Now I am lucidly aware that this is very much got the feel of my birth house on Alberta. We jump out the window onto the stuffy chair. 

Mountain Ka II

I am at work. In a cubicle or cash register. Either way, I feel I am in a smaller space within a much larger space at my place of work. Mandy S. is my coworker and there are other employees around maybe two or three. I am being honored in some way by higher management but I get a feeling of jealousy or envy somewhere in the group of four or five. Not necessarily from Mandy S. I am very feminine in this dream. A heart breaker and I wear a lot of make up. Eyelashes are particularly emphasized as I recall. I sense something taboo happening concerning a bathrobe and possibly my dream ego. Outside of this work place seems to be the base of Mt.Ka. A facility wraps around that is our work place. There is a mound that we sit on. I cannot recall if this was a sort of break time or an evacuation, but we sit on the hill. Ryland B. is here. He is not happy. He is very aggravated and I think it has very much to do with me and my opinion of an outcome. We sit below the cracked mountain that appears so often to my dream ego, Mt.Ka, on a grassy mound outside of our place of work as it begins to rain black tar. There is no instant fear or panic but I sense that we all got up and fled to one of two doors equally far apart. I do not believe I was able to get inside the large gray door. Nor did I try the other door. What takes place after that I cannot recall.

Bank Job

I'm in a bank. I'm asked to complete a transfer for a man that works there. We are in an office that multiple people share. I sit at a woman's computer who I don't know. I look on the desktop for an icon that would lead to a transfer but I don't find one. I open up a game that is like The Sims. I eat some of her candy. I work in a tall stone building. Maybe brick. The corridors remind me of Hogwarts. Not all mythical like. Just the architecture. This workplace of mine empties out to a busy city/town that I visit often. Full of twists, turns, hills and hidden doors. The main walk of this town takes you to waterfront. I often get lost in this city. 

19 Bloodsuckers Way Part II

I grab the fries from the sill. Outside was Denny in an old junker car. There were two to three teenage girls with him in the car. He scolded me for taking food that was not mine. The girls offer me a cigarette and they were also smoking weed and Denny did not seem to mind. I may have been in the house of the “sanguine” but I am not aware of them, or afraid of them for that matter. There are three older girls and one young black girl with chubby cheeks, a pot belly and an oversized living room chair. She was talking to me about her self confidence and that she wasn't afraid to be confident when she talked to me. She seems more like she is chanting some sort of self-affirmation or chant, trying to convince herself. As she was speaking, her hands were holding up her torso and neck via the armrests. She was rotating her body counterclockwise almost every two seconds.

Mountain Ka I

Driving past I could see a great tall mountain. The mountain opens up and there are many hovering, flying crafts in it. More were coming. A great crowd of people were at the base of the mountain. I know my feeling were that of panic and an “end” of something. We continue driving home. In the house with a hidden room, my immediate family is present. My mother and Maya are in the long living room. My dad and I travel up the steps. I realize that y room in the house is up one level from the way I had originally recalled. My dad and I want to be in a position to view the “Event” that was the “end” or the “beginning”. My dad stopped to go into the room that is below my own. I told him he didn't have to stay there, he could see better from my room. As I focused on the room in front of me, the room he chose, I see that it is perfect for him, much better suited and the bed is large and comfortable. I knew he would be happier in this room. So I continued to my room to view the “Event” from my window. 

19 Bloodsuckers Way

We are at the doorstep of the sanguinary creatures house. The home looks ordinary. They try and lure us in with telekinetic force. We resist. We are all very scared. At some point we realize that they are not harmful anymore. One of us signals her song to lure one of them out (to daylight). I contemplate stealing two wooden candlesticks before I leave, but I know they will find me. We are free. I have three large paper bags of items. I fit them all into one. As I catch up to the other three girls for the hike out, one takes the form of my Aunt Jama. She is surrounded by her Barendse's family. They have just bought the bar/lodge. One tells me that I need to stay for a night and sing on the stage tomorrow. They imply that I may be their second most talented entertainer. I ask who the second most talented is. They tell me someone else. I tell them that maybe I'll recite a poem or do a monologue. I step into a great big theater with reclining chairs. I'm in the chairs. The little girl is there. She is a ghost. I try to help her pass over. She is angry. I realized that whatever I watch in the theater on the screen was playing in the next room. 

Clusterfuck

I am at work and Kendall S. is there. I get into the golf cart and as I go to my task, a baby lion runs in front of my path. I stop and am frightened at first but soon realize it means no harm. It's mother appears. Later a medium-sized elephant stares me down from behind a madrone tree. (This is in the dream-scape that has one large room for us all to sleep in. Where we move the beds around.) As I go back to the main property I realize I've gone too far and instead of turning around I just go the long way. I cross the fence and come upon the parking lot that surrounds a great hall/convention center. I turn right to continue my loop but I see a busy road I must cross and I don't feel confident doing so in a golf cart. I turn back and meet another busy street, so I head north. Driving north I am a man and there is a woman I know in the passengers seat. She loves speed and thrills. We start to go very fast and I see her suspended body in the rear view mirror as if I am driving a limo. As we hit bumps her body seems to suspend in zero gravity. We are going very fast, now in the golf cart, and we crash. I am not hurt nor did I fear being hurt, but I do fear she has been obliterated. Even in the toss and roll of the crash she is fine. I warn her of the dangers of speed. 

June 16th 2011

My father, or some older male authority that I respect and I are walking the aisles of a major retail store, criticizing their product ethics. I say, “If we could only show the people what it all looks like without added color.” One of the clerks is attractive. There is a little boy at the checkout. I think I see Tony Hawk in the line and I tell him. I soon realize it is not Tony Hawk and recover with an, “April fools!” I am upset or speaking harshly to a girl and I know my breath is just horrible. I am concerned she won't take me seriously. 

June 6th 2011

My father, or some older male authority that I respect and I are walking down the aisles of a major retail store.
Note: This is the same store that often appears to me. Many levels that I have grown to know quite well.
We are criticizing their product ethics. I say, “If we could only show the people what it all looks like without all the added color.” One of the clerks is attractive. There is a little boy at the checkout. I think I see Tony Hawk in the line ahead of us and call this little boy to see. I realize that it is not in fact Tony Hawk and recover with an “April fools!” I am upset or speaking harshly to to this girl near me and I know that my breath smells horrible and because of that I am concerned that she won’t take me seriously.

May 5th 2011

It was Brian’s birthday and we are at my old pre-school. We are sitting on couches surrounding a large rectangular pool. I want to sit by him but there isn’t any room for me. so I choose a couch to myself. I go to swim but there are four or five large basketball players about to start a swim race. I am confident I can be faster than them so before they take off I jump (dive) in a ways down. Diving in the water I find it is much more shallow than I had anticipated. I nearly hit my head on the bottom. When I come up, one of the basketball players is saying rude things to me. He is telling me I don’t belong. When I return I find Brian fast asleep on someone’s lap, so I go to find some food. A very nice waitress offers me caviar and something to scoop it up with that looks like tiny purple/blue clam chips. I am finally feeling a little better when her manager loudly whispers to her that I’ve taken too much.

“I can hear you.” I say to him as he continues ignoring me.
He turns to the waitress and says, “She is allowed seven or eight.”
Apparently he’s keeping tabs and I’ve had nine or ten. I ask him, “How on earth is someone who has never eaten caviar to know the proper way?”
I also imply that he obviously thinks he is better than me. Now we are beginning a mischievous task. Brian is awake and wants some adventure. They don’t clue me into the plan but I go along anyway. They’ve started already, deep into the building that I know as my old pre-school (but naturally quite different as happens in dreams). I have no time to gather any of my belongings. It seems they are always just a few steps ahead of me, around the corner. There is a small boy in a wheel chair whom I know cannot move too much. I see him roll forward and begin to call to his guardian when I see look at me and begin to roll back into place.

March 31st 2011

I am not supposed to be here. They found out that I am in 1,300,000 dollars worth of debt. They sneak me in. I hide behind the bookshelves and try not to make a sound. Our antagonist is Sue from Glee. She walks around inspecting things. Now I am on the floor, almost naked hugging the ground. She doesn't seem to notice me. Then suddenly she sees me, but she is not upset. I say that “I'm not allowed around these colors!”She understands.

We are at my river house. I am on a bus. I get off the bus and look at the long loopy path to my door. “Never mind guys! I can just do this!” I trollop through the grassy middle yard and am there in seconds.